his recompense;
but his devotion to his father and mother covered —
and God rewarded him with a servant's reward,
and he slept in Abraham's bosom — and yet
he rose to his Lord, complaining and weeping;
so He calmed his fright and bent over him in tenderness,
and pillowed him upon His hands and His knees,
and said to His servant David: Sing!
So he slept in His fatherly embrace a while,
until the people of Eternity cried out in vexation:
"Am I to endure the grumbling of a wicked servant
who on earth complained of wrongs where none had wronged him?
I see the poets have passed all bounds; truly I —
Why do you weep, O man, and what —
Is it My pardoning you that has set you weeping, or what —
He cried: Pardon, my Lord! Whom have I —
I came to You hoping to be moved to an embrace —
an embrace in which so often there sang —
Have You never laid Your head upon a breast —
So spare me the bliss of Eternity; truly I —
She would pat me, gently, as her way was —
***
Do You remember what the God of Moses was —
Then see how He has become tender —
a harsh god, taking delight in blood?
for her — when we suffered, He suffered.
***
An inspired poet died in the East —
holding lawful what God's writ made forbidden —
for the evil deeds he had sent before him —
his misdeeds — and so was delivered from Gehenna —
pious of stock, learned in the books —
a little before dawn our poet grew restless —
the weeping of a boy of Paradise is a funeral —
and soothed his heart with His abounding tenderness —
and bent over him with kisses and embraces —
for this weeping nightingale — and so he sang —
and once more let his tears fall, red as 'andam —
And God cried out in anger: How long!
he is given Kawthar to drink and calls it bitter aloes —
even in bliss he complains against Me!
I could almost repent of having created the poets —
has befallen you, that you never leave off complaining? Speak!
Were you repaid for it with kindness, or —?!
any but You — and who but the All-Merciful shows mercy?
dearer to me than my own self, and nobler —
content of eye, between the clasp and the kiss —
a tender one, beating with a mother's love?
my bliss lies between that breast and that mouth —
and she sings: there, my darling, softly — there!
***
Then the Lord of all the worlds bowed His head
and said within Himself: This is impossible —
does a sinner on the earth enjoy, before Me —
I shall uncover this secret one day —
at the complaint of the poet of the dusty earth, and was troubled:
can a poet know what I do not know?
what I myself do not enjoy in Paradise?
though it cost Me to suffer and to go without.
***
And there came a night — and behold: a boy,
a little one, asleep in Mary's embrace!!