Story of the Month: She Missed the Train
Samira Azzam

It is the first page of the book of life, a green page on whose margins danced splendid hopes and sweet, laughing dreams.

Two small children, Ayda and Sameh; she is ten and he is eight, and both gaze smiling upon life and come to it merry and hopeful.

On the page follow sweet pictures from the memories of their childhood — a playful, merry childhood, enjoying an abundance of the father's tenderness without the affection of the mother, who had died.

A picture of her on a swing, the two little heads drawn close together as they went swinging along, and the father's heart swinging with them.

And a picture of the two of them awaiting the train's return, as was their custom at every sunset, until, when they heard its whistle rending the silence of the sky, the two little hearts leapt with delight at the coming of their father — the stationmaster — in his navy-blue suit with its shining yellow buttons.

And a third picture, perhaps stamped more deeply on Ayda's mind than any other:

The two little ones bent over their desk, their father before them directing, watching, and teaching, until, when they had finished with it all and each went stuffing his copybooks into his small leather satchel in readiness for the morrow, the father gazed at her a long while and then asked his customary question:

— What will Ayda be when she grows up?

Ayda has no need to think long about the matter, no need to strike the flint of thought — what could she wish to be more than a teacher? A teacher who commands and forbids and tyrannizes over the copybooks with her red pen?

The father listens, laughing, and asks:

— And Sameh — what does he say?

Sameh toys with the locks of his glossy black hair, and there leaps into his imagination the picture of their neighbor 'the doctor'... his leather bag in his right hand, gold-rimmed spectacles on his eyes... How he wishes he had a wondrous stethoscope like the one the doctor carries in his bag, and those dignified spectacles... Sameh parts his lips and says in his anxious, quavering voice:

— I shall be a doctor...

The father rubs his hands with satisfaction and says: Well and good, children... a teacher and a doctor — and who on the face of the wide earth is like me!...

Then a tear of joy springs from his eye, and he looks tenderly at his two children, secretly praying God to lengthen his days so that he might see how the days would make of Ayda a schoolmistress and of Sameh a doctor.

On the page there is a fourth picture, and a fifth, and a sixth, in which a new face has its share: Mukhtar, the aunt's son, training the two little ones to climb the oak tree, to chase the colored but

terflies, and to build lofty castles out of heaps of sand and stones. Mukhtar, and Ayda, and Sameh... a trinity of merriment, freedom, and mischief!

The happy trinity grows up, and the wheel of the days hurries them along, to halt with them one day — and behold, Ayda is a young woman whose twenty years brim with dreams, setting off toward the school, this time a teacher and not a pupil; a sedate young woman, not a playful child; charming and enchanting, with love and youth and the longed-for hope glowing in her features...

Then one glance at her right hand, and you glimpse a radiant ring — from Mukhtar, the aunt's son, pledge of the sacred bond!

Mukhtar — companion of childhood, intimate of youth, and partner of a lifetime; and on Ayda's lip there forms a smile brimming with the warmth of memory, before she opens the next page of the book of life...

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Mukhtar and Ayda — the eye cannot mistake them, though it may not know the gloom drawn across the two brows and the sorrow swimming in the eyes.

Ayda has begun to waver between obedience and rebellion, as she pulls off the engagement ring to offer it to Mukhtar, a sharp constriction in her heart and hot tears in her eyes.

Mukhtar seizes both her hands, begging and imploring:

— Won't you think the matter over well, Ayda?

Ayda shakes her beautiful head and says:

— How long I have thought!

— And the result?

— What must be, must be!

— And I, Ayda — am I nothing worth mentioning to you?

— Forgive me, Mukhtar; I do not like to hear this from you, you who of all people best know the truth of

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